N..for Nostalgia?

I was just going through google searching for some Nepali groups in bangalore, associations of some sorts. Although, i managed to find some groups, I found something more; blogs by nepali youths; people who have stayed back in Nepal, who study there and who blog about it.
Nostalgia for Nepal Yatayat( something like the DTC or BMTC in India) and the roads of Kathmandu filled me up and yet It seems so fake at times, this long distance nationalism where people are prepared to rave and rant at everything/everybody that is bad for Nepal and yet Nepal struggles to find a place in their future plans. It seems strange that I am starting to figure in that group.
Still, there is always this longing to go back, and the feeling that it is the place where one can seek refuge, where one can be free. I dont know, it might be possible outsides too. Looking at the growing size and diversity of Nepali immigrant communities, it seems quite possible. I don't know, but India does not feel home enough right now.
Besides the nagging issues that we Nepalis have with regards to identity and the conscious efforts we make at a positive portryal, besides the anti- India ranting that we seem to enjoy so much, besides the so-called nationalism of ours..besides all of this there is always a simple fact.
Its home we miss...at least that is what I miss, where despite its crammed roads and the traffic jams, kathmandu will always be our city and the heart will leap with joy at the feel of the wind and the sight of the hills.
Looking forward to going back soon..