Currently....

The setting: Torts Class
Look up and see the projector: Section 269 of IPC- Negligent act likely to spread infection of disease injurious to life
Look around: cricinfo.com, explosm.net and Sahil's famous video on the other laptops around...
Further look around: Some contract vivas and some movies going around....

Yes, it is Torts class and its really hard to see anybody really interested...Who can blame them? Its just too good a chance to pass when people are allowed laptops in the class...and we people are no exceptions...

This is law school for me..right now. everybody in their own world with their own objectives, some mandatory projects that somehow get done in the last hour before submission time, exams that somehow seem to stretch on and on and yet seem blisfully gone just a week after the exams.
Somehow, there just seems to be no time for anything and yet things get done...

Especially all the activities that get organised and that I seem to miss and yet I get to do other things....
I remember bringing a guitar to college hoping to learn something this trimester and somehow I cant get past the main riffs of Smoke on the Water. Anyway the guitar has done its job, I guess...my friend Akshay plays it so well..

Anyway, each day to the end of the trimester is dragging itself out....and the end still seems so far especially with 3 vivas and an entire final exams standing in between...

Hope to survive this trimester just like the last one...

The year gone by

Looking back at the year gone by and reminiscing about things that should have happened, options that should have been taken and decisions that just could not materialise, hopes shattered but another way forward....
2008 was a great year for me...
Still, I do not want to look back at it as some nostalgic year and remember the good times and the bad moments and as they say...take the goods from it. For me this was the year, when important decisions were made, where dreams came, shattered as glass houses, were remade and somehow life went on....
Do I remember the first of January, 2008. I believe I do but am really surprised that there are nothing but vague memories..too faded and funnily cant recollect a single resoultion that I must have made. What I do remember from this year is the wait for acceptances that never came, the mails exchanged with the college representives, the waitlists and the nothingness. The emptyness that stared ahead.Then the ray of hope and finally the biggest decision of my life, my choice for my educational future.
What I remember is missing friends who would have been together with me, had I chosen the other alternative. The friends that I miss but I believe no matter how hard, i had to take the decision.
The year has literally been a year of halves for me, with both halves really different from the other. While the first half was full of dreams of an undergraduate education in the US, the second half has a more cautious and prodding approach to life at law school in Bangalore, india.
The first half was full of numerous applications, which never seemd to end but finally did. And then the wait which again finally ended with an acceptance in the US and an acceptance to law school here at Bangalore.
Perhaps, the first half was where I chose where to be and what to do, I gave myself an impetus which I believe was in the right direction. And the second half has been the living of that direction.
The second half has been full of different highlights. July 1 and life at Law School. The gruelling first trimester, spent feeling lonely....the vacations which cheered me up and the current second trimester feeling much better. The Pondi trip, my first experience with the sea...SF..well the second trimester is working its way to an end too...
So 2008 has not been unkind....
Great in fact....
Here is to the New Year...
May things go as they have to
May acts run their course
There is a circle my friend
It will lead back to you.....

Waiting..

Encased in my own world

But not yet insulated

Hammered; Exposed

Not interested perhaps

No ideas come forth

For my comfort; Or

To help me get through

A storm rages

Right on the throes

The feeling comes through

Not at all pleasant

Still no idea;Or

Action initiated

I lie there

Just there;No reason

The wait continues.

Is it the Wind?

Is it necessary

For the wind to blow

With just the right breeze

Just when

You feel everything is dry

Nothing looks good

Or does the wind

Just blow its course?

Without you in mind

Does the wind even pause

To think of you?

Is it the wind that

Sets the mood

For your siesta

in solitude

when you want time

to really think

and contemplate

Is it the wind??

Forever there..

The feelings that course
Through my veins
When i talk to you
and hold you to my heart
When those words that you say
Opens in me
The one you love

Those words go on
I reach further
Into the depths
of your love
You come closer
I feel you;your passion
Your hands on mine
Protected, I feel
Insulated from the world
Safe in our own haven
With you;my love

Suddenly you stop
I look up; into your eyes
You look back; give me a smile
Nothing I hear, just the breeze
Yet, your love is so audible
Audible to my heart
I continue to stare
deep into those lovely eyes

My heart skips a beat
I let out a sigh
Can live my life forever
under that gaze
that meets my eye
so full of love
no need for anything else

Let me lie here
Under your watch
On that lap of yours
Just make me sleep
And lie there……Forever
Your hands in mine
Loved, Protected…
Forever.

Emptiness

Straight against, I stare

Nothing but a melancholy face

Perhaps a single strand of wistful thinking

Lost deep in the labyrinth of fear.

I run away, attempting an escape

Caught, am I?

I attempt a plea

Deep down within I hear something

Is it worth escaping at all?

Where nowhere can I see a light

Darkness surrounds, a chill spreads.

I look around

Hoping against hope

To see, to face, to finally confront

The demons of my dreams

See nothing

Just an emptiness

A void so big, on either sides

Rooted, nothing left

To contemplate

The single strand still there perhaps

Somewhere in the labyrinth

Not of fear but

An emptiness

Thoughts swirling finally recede

No pain, perhaps a sigh

The droplets flow trickling down

I feel a calm, right there

In that emptiness.

Dunno...

Dunno what to do

where to look

where to go

what to seek

Nothing seems right

nothing goes well.

All my love

seems in vain

Dunno what I want

what I seek

never get what i think

Dunno….

why I need

what i think that I need

dunno what

never seem to find

the proper words to say

For the emotions that

course my heart

or the feelings that

clutter my self

never got the charm

to bare my soul

or make it seem like

things to hold

Dunno when to look

and see things straight

or avoid a glance

and move ahead

Dunno when to hurt

both sides of the ridge

and let it be and just move on

Dunno when to scatter the broken china pieces

Dunno what to do with memories

too precious, but yet……

dunno what to do without you

Just dunno what to do without you...